The New Yarn beginning....will you be a part of it?

Ok, blogging, praying friends, You have been praying for this "new big thing" I've been talking about. ( I know you have, because it is coming together...I'm doing it scared!) God has added a new Yarn to our story.... I have been called to start a Social Enterprise ( didn't even know it had a name when I had the idea, but it does!) If you dont know what that is yet - check out the video below for an explanation. What is a social enterprise? My goal is to provide practical hope and help for Women who are spouses of inmates. I would be providing packages of information, resources, and personal support for things that are both common to all who go through this life experience and individualized to each woman's situation. Things like how to save money on those outrageous collect calls, How to navigate two worlds at once, Why do I feel like I'm the one in prison, How can I help my Spouse while he's gone, How to be a single mom - when I'm not single.... …

The New Yarn - My vision

Let's talk for a bit about the future.... My future, the future of this blog, mainly - The Hope and Glory of God that will see fruition in the future. Lord willing, in the near future.
I have been given a vision - a calling.  The Bible tells us that "All things work for good,  for those who are called according to His purpose" Rom. 8:28 God has a "plan and purpose to prosper and not to harm" (my paraphrase) Jer. 29:11
In light of this, I am able to see our season of trials, of being "in the system"  as God's preparation for the calling he has given me.
My goal is to start a company - a social enterprise  that will provide spouses of inmates with the information and support they need to not just survive but thrive as they navigate their changing worlds and work to have healthy families in this challenging situation.
I am currently thinking through and planning out the content and how it will be structured,  but the way I envision it for now is hav…
What happened to that blessed mess!? It's been 2 months is she okay!? Maybe she's not as blessed as she thought, maybe there really isn't any hope and her family has fallen apart....

I would so hate for you to think that because I have not been here that things are going badly or that there is no hope. Remember, there is always hope with God. Even when I fail you and I'm not here or I don't post, God is still good, God is still working,  there is always hope. And you know what? Even if my family were to fall apart - that does not change the fact that God is good and there is always hope, even when the outcome is different than you thought it would be.
Let me reassure you however we have not fallen apart. We are doing well, still learning, growing and figuring this out. Still having lots of ups and downs. We knew it was going to take time, and lots of work, and that's what we've been doing for the past couple of months. It's hard work, daily hard work t…

Don't listen to the lies

There was a post on Facebook by Stacy Debee on A Place of Love that asked what was holding us back or hindering us from stepping out and being bold.
Stop just a minute and answer that for yourself.... Dig deep, really think about it -  write it down...
we'll come back to that later.
My answer kind of surprise me because I thought I had gotten beyond it a long time ago. Apparently, however, these fears hang around in the background to raise their ugly head just when you're getting ready to step out and do something big, or something hard - something to make a difference, or even just stepping in the right direction!
The Devil loves to use these fears to do his best to prevent you from being part of God's good work. He hates to see us succeed and will use the lies that we tell ourselves in any way he can.
Okay transparency time here's my big

I'm afraid I'm going to fail. Every. time.
I keep thinking "but if I mess this up God is going to look bad!"


Yesterday I spoke of Good Friday and the things it caused me to reflect upon.
 Today I would like to focus on Easter and the resurrection.
The resurrection speaks of the conquering of Death
The removal of Darkness
The Forgiveness of sins
The start of a new life.

Our family has come through so many struggles and now we begin our new life.
We are winning against the darkness of sin. Infidelity, anger, miscommunication and so much more.
Just like Jesus took off the wrappings of his burial so we must continue to come out of the wrappings of our sin. Jesus took the time to take them off carefully, fold them neatly, and put them in their place.
It's a daily process coming out of this death of ours. We must deal with the wrappings  -the past- one piece at a time, carefully, then fold it, set it aside, and leave it behind.
Like Christ coming out of his tomb, like a butterfly coming out of its cocoon, this family will learn to truly live and fly as a beautiful testimony to the Lord. For i…

Good Friday

The thoughts that Easter bring to mind this year....
The struggles Christ went through leading up to and including the cross seem to parallel the struggles we've been through.
Rejection, unbelief and misunderstanding from his closest friends.
The pain and struggle of following God's will, no matter how hard, even when it seems easier to do it another way. Realization that God being with me doesn't mean everything is easy.
Seeing that the things that sometimes look like the worst thing in the world are the one thing that turns everything around and put everything in place the way it should be.
I have loved for a while the song "Just be Held" by Casting Crowns and have clung to the words of that song - "your world's not falling apart, it's falling into place". Now I'm seeing the truth of those words actually come to fruition in my own life.
Christ truly understands our struggles in this broken world because he lived every one of them in so…

When life happens

So, I forgot Saturday was Saturday, Sunday didn't work the way it was supposed to, and today I've been running around like crazy because it's time to move everybody up into the next grade level.
So no blog on Saturday, thought I would do it Sunday, but let's just say Sunday didn't feel like Sunday.
The devil really tries to get in there and make life happen in ways that you really don't want it to and it really shouldn't.
I had my blog all written up but not yet typed, and it's a great blog about how we were communicating -  so wonderfully - and we did - last Sunday. And I will share that one in the future, but in keeping with being fully real, let's talk about this Sunday.
So Sunday morning - hubby is making me super proud gets up and  gets Church ready on the TV for us, because I didn't have enough gas to get to church. Then proceeds to tell me that he meant to say something last week, but things happened (which they did), but he wanted to …